Earlier in the week I posted the following comment as my Facebook status,
“The Pharisee in us favours impeccable conduct; the child relies in the relentless tenderness of God”.
Who is this Pharisee and who is this child?
The Pharisee is distinguished by strict observance of the law and is commonly known to be pretentious and sanctimonious.
The Pharisee always does it the ‘right’ way.
The Pharisee knows that people are watching.
The child is young, innocent and untouched by worldly experience.
The child accepts.
The child makes mistakes and gets deliciously lost in a world without prying eyes.
We come into this life as open, unique, authentic beings, true to ourselves.
We come as children.
To create is like breathing.
A floor becomes a stage, a piece of wood a steering wheel.
A blank page is soon filled, mere scribbles become a story or a piece of art.
Then we stopped being a kids, for some of us a little too early.
We were taught to behave and that is necessary…
But were there times that your authentic self was disciplined out of you?
When it all became about what others thought of you?
At what stage was it necessary to slip on the mask, the false smile?
When did you have to start to pretend in order to be accepted?
I know all about putting the best foot forward but there is a fine line between the real self and the one we put out there.
It is the same with creating something.
How often do you create, work, cook, live solely with others opinions in mind?
How free are you to express your own thoughts and ideas?
Are you used to suppressing what you think and feel?
How open are you to the thoughts of others?
What, are you disciplining out of who?
Are you hard on yourself?
(I know that often I am.)
Do you often walk away from your authentic self?
This week I want you to think back to who you were as a child.
Can you remember when the voice of the Pharisee first crept in?
What would you like to have kept from the girl or boy that you were?
Remember that free little person?
This week I am tasking you to try and write four traits that you would like to reclaim.
Remember Christ standing a child before His disciples and making a profound statement:
“Unless you change and become like one of these you will not enter the Kingdom.”
His hands were not on the shoulders of a Pharisee, but on those of a child.
We all have to grow up, but growing up does not mean losing the child within us.
This is Tania Ahlfeldt praying for your creative freedom and busily searching for the child within.
Photo credit: D Sharon Pruitt